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| The Windy day Of My Life Painted by Shalom ISORUBLOG Oil On Canvas, 60.64 cm × 45.5 cm, 2014 |
🌹 When I was a teenager, a puberty, I used to want to be an enviable painter whom everybody admires... Because, that time, they looked fascinating and extraordinaire in my eyes.
True be told, I liked to draw and paint to some degree/partly, for I wanted to get a job that I can "work alone", so that I thought that painting work would be appropriate to me...
But, I thought, if one has not much money, then he could not be a painter the same as musicians... Thus, becoming a painter seemed to be impossible to me, not because a talent first but because a money first... For painters have to spend much money to purchase painting stuffs.
In fact, the expense of exhibition, including the cost of painting-frame, in galleries will be heavier than above matter, even though online-galleries permeate nowadays...
Even so, there is no any warrant/guarantee whether such a painting is sold in galleries or not, but rather it is identical with a "spending", which there is no a practical profit.
Anyway, admiring a painting in galleries or in museums will improve the impression of paintings than viewing a photographic painting indirectly. Plus, If one wants to buy a painting (if it is not cheap), then he will want to directly buy that paintings after reviewing in galleries.
Well, time elapsed, I taught myself how to draw and paint, having said that, I'm not a talented person to paint, for I sensed/perceived the fact through my painting work...
What I have learned through "self-teaching" is, this: after all, every learners have to be their own teacher. Because, teachers are not oneself, what is more regrettable is, they don't even teach everything that they know, which says, their "know-how", for its know-how or knowledge are their means/method of making a "living", so that if they teach everything that they know, then they are likely to be underestimated from learners vice versa... And their fountain of knowledge will be also dried up... then, no one will want to seek the dried fountain to quench a thirst...
A self-study might let learners learn something object more unforgettable and more plentiful, though there might be a limited boundary to fully achieve it, for the direct experience that learners learned without teachers enhances/increases their power of memory, whereas the indirect experience that learners learned from teachers is likely to easily forget...
In addition, self-teaching is time-consuming method...
Even so, I think that there is "no easy way" for learning, whatever it is, but rather, there should fail and be frustrated for the result over and over again... and should withstand and overcome all the troubles, too...
The more it is painful, the more it might be worthy like this example; the deeper the valley, the higher mountain, or the pure gold is refined through the furnace...By the way, who would want to undergo that difficulties?... Hence, people might want to learn from teachers, which might be an easy way to learn in some ways. That being said, it is not meant that learning from teachers is "unnecessary"... What I want to say is that ultimately, learners cannot rely on them...
People may know this fact; our lives should be independent... Learning might be the same as it...
Even little birds must leave from their mother-birds and the nests like people leave from their parent after being an adult ...
But yet, ironically, after having a new family with a marriage, people depend on their new "family" again like family is only the best refuge... This phenomenon seems to stands out in Asia. For generally Asia still pursues a collectivism, whereas the US and Europe chase an individualism...
At any rate, today, family-centered conception is getting weaker, for people don't even get married, so that "birthrate" is also inactive...
In my personal opinion, the world population should be "decreased" rather than now, an increasing world population causes many problems, such as: an environmental pollution, a food shortage, a rat race, a lack of resource...etc., furthermore we people live with lots of livestock on the earthㅡpeople want to endlessly eat "meat" therewith. 🐃🐂🐖🐄🐓...
That livestock are the factor of a food shortage... Because , people feed that livestock with hundreds of millions of tons of crops to butcher, while Africa people cannot eat a handful of corn... And that thousand upon thousand livestock also pollute the environment as much as people do...
Well, I often read news comments, it seems like people no longer want to give birth, because living itself is painful in this world... They often say, " I don't want to hand my poverty down to my children. My poverty is enough to have suffered alone." ... and some who cannot even get married due to money grieve over their ill luck through that comment section...
I don't want to say which one is better or correct between a married-life and a single life. I might just want to say there are two aspects like so...
Today, the world's economy looks more sluggish with the coronavirus pandemic, so that children who have to be independent from their parent seem to be more harsh... Anyhow, poor children should cultivate the wilderness alone, unless their parent are the rich...
The way that that children have to go is never easy, and this world is never an easy opponent/rival... That being said, there might be another way that they can live like this proverb; "Live with your gums, if you don't have tooth"...
Well, I couldn't learn painting expertly, even if I wanted to be a painter at one time/at one point, for no one could support learning painting... However, some of famous painters also taught themself how to paint...
There are thousands of informations how to paint today, and a great number of painters have been advertising their own painting sales via a social media or an online galleries.
When I didn't know what the painting was and what the painter was, l just dreamed to exhibit my some paintings in a gallery. I didn't even know that my paintings were "crappy" that's why I dreamed to display...
However, such a dream came true in my life for the first time, and it will never happen again...The exhibited painting was only "one", not many but only one, in Paris and Lyon, France. Both were a group exhibition, firstly it was displayed in Lyon, and then in Paris.
There was a story that I was able to exhibit in France. I think that it was like a "miracle"... Maybe 3~4 years ago, I read an advertisement of international art exhibition(Art Fair) which held in France.
Before it happened, I have dreamed to exhibit my painting in "Paris", not other place, before I die, even though I could not visit in France in person... I still cannot afford to visit other countries...
France is well known for art and cultureㅡ especially, paintings might be their fadeless pride. So, people might admire art works like this ; " An immortal masterpiece..." Thus, I applied the exhibition via email with the application forms (including my simple profile) and some photos of my paintings.
Oddly(miraculously), the gallery in Paris approved my painting to display, but typically galleries don't easily approve to exhibit for an amateur who don't have career of exhibitions or "art" academic degree/credential like me...
I was rejected twice to exhibit my painting in domestic galleries due to that reason, probably... What was more important is, my paintings might have been "crappy" in their eyes, too...
Usually, galleries want to exhibit painter's several paintings to make money, because, almost all exhibitions are not free, so that each one of paintings becomes an income for that galleries by which they can charge the rental cost from painters. Besides, what if that paintings are sold, then galleries receive some commission by selling once again...
This exhibition in France was not free either, applicants had to pay a rental fee or entrance fee for the exhibition.
Despite, applicants/painters have to rival with many other applicants, and if galleries don't want to permit displayingㅡ even though painters pay the expenseㅡ then, applicants cannot exhibit in that galleries.
Even so, I don't know about private/solo exhibition well, for I have never displayed a solo exhibition in a gallery.
But, in general, if it is a group exhibition, then each of galleries differs in what they want to displayㅡas I see it, typically galleries don't like a fine art-style, but prefer a chic and cold "modern painting" in my country.
I applied only one painting to the gallery in Paris, amazingly, they approved my painting, I still think it is "unbelievable" that I was able to exhibit in Paris, Lyon, France.
After getting the permission, I sent my painting through post office delivery service. The delivery fee was not much expensive as much as I supposed. The cost was around
$ 40~55ㅡ I don't remember the exact amount...
While I was paying the charge in front of the counter, the post office staff looked exciting, looking at my painting-package on which it was written the address of Paris, France.
The delivery was like " I " was about to go Paris , though I was not able to go in France in practice... At that instant, I was exciting too...After ending all exhibition, the gallery in Paris sent some of photos and advertised images that they displayed my painting in Paris and Lyon through my email account as they contracted.
These are the displayed photos some of them;
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| The Gallery In Paris, 2017 |
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| The Art Fair In Lyon, France, 2017. |
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| The Art Fair In Lyon, France, 2017 |
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| Image By The Gallery In Paris |
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| The Gallery In Paris, France, 2017 |
How petty my painting was in the art fair which was displayed along with other painter's paintings all over the world, though it was a small partition in Lyon! After that, I decided to stop painting in some ways...
First, I taught myself how to paint a watercolor on paper, it was very difficult to control a water amount on paper, water painting itself is very picky as well, besides watercolor cannot retouch the mistaken coloring in contrast with an oil painting... Because, the brush-touch and its coloring are colored on paper as it is, which cannot cover by using a transparent water.
Watercolor is transient/momentary and uses an accidental spreading effect on paper, so that if painters mistake to color, then they have to redo, this arouses an irritation...
There are manifold watercolor papersㅡ canson, fabriano, arches...etc. and all these things have a different feature each of them... In general, such a paper is not a paper, but is a kind of cotton... for a cotton itself sucks up water very well.
This is the conson that I have now ;
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| Image : selfie Made in France |
A watercolor is necessary for emphasizing a transparency with that techniques, if not, the painting looks dirty... But I couldn't do it well, after all, I gave it up...
This is one of my watercolors as not an expert painter ;
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| < For A Minute > 44 cm × 37.5 cm Painted by Shalom ISOURBLOG Watercolor on arches , 2012 |
For this reason, my oil paintings always turned out a dark painting, not because a dark hue itself, but because my awkward techniques to blend colors and to brush which might have misused diverse oil painting mediums.------
Moreover, an oil painting smells like a gasoline and every time painters should wash the oil-stained brushes with a laundry soap after coloring. I did not like it...
In conclusion, I didn't even know the basic course of oil painting, but rather, first I should have imitated other famous painter's painting before creating my own art-style not as an expert painter... I did not do it. For I didn't wanted to imitate other painter's painting...
It might have been my failure and arrogance that I did not imitate other painter's paintings first in order to learn how they blended colors and how they brushed... etc.
... After all, I stopped painting with a desperation and futility... and I no longer paint, now just some of my paintings that I painted back then were piled up in a corner... But, when I become the old, I may restart a painting to kill time... That day, If I paint again, I would like to teach myself how to paint through an imitation work, a basic course, step by step, then I may find out how to effectively blend color and how to diversely
brush through... something like that...
This is some of my oil paintings and acrylic painting on the paper(arches cotton) ;
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| < Longing For The Melody> Painted by Shalom ISOURBLOG Acrylic On Arches 90.9 cm × 72.7 cm, 2013 |
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| <Abstract Composition> Painted by Shalom ISOURBLOG Acrylic On Wooden Panel 53 cm × 45.5 cm, 2015 |
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| < The Outcast > Painted By Shalom ISORBLOG Oil on Canvas 65.1 cm × 50 cm, 2015 |
This is an Acrylic color sample that I have now:
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| Acrylic color Made in domestic Image: selfie |
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| Oil color / Titanium white/ Brand : Van Gogh Made in Netherlands Image : selfie |
When we people become the old, we might have to fight against a dreary time with the aging... That day, everybody will experience the loneliness with the dreary time... If so, how slow time flies!....
Painting might be one way to kill time... Because, painting is like a thief who steals that time, which means, time will fly quickly. When we paint, we might experience "another space" on the canvas like we are in another world...
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| Image by the Gallery In Paris |
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