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| Marionette Doll |
" One reaps, what he sows."
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| A harvest |
The original phrase is, this;
Galatians 6 : 7~9 Do not be deceived: God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, that will he also reap. For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life. And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season, we will reap, if we do not give up. ESVThis is just my personal view about the idiom that one reaps, what he sow. In this passage, the keyword is the Spirit and eternal life and the good deed is to sow to the Spirit instead of sowing to the corruption of the flesh. By the way, people might assume the definition of "good deed" in a different way...
Anyway, I don't even know what the Spirit is and what the eternal life is, nor do I want to be involved in that message, because it was spoken by the apostle Paul.
According to the Bible, Jesus teaches how to sow to the Spirit; John 6:63 ESV "It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh is no help at all. The words that I(Christ) have spoken to you are spirit and life."
Giving an example of the harvest that the apostle Paul stated, it will not be meant the thing that if we people endeavor to obtain a fruition in our lives, then we will necessarily reap it as we usually think... Anyway, this idiom, one reaps, what he sows, will be proper to exemplify in autumn... Despite this idiom looks fickle, for there are a lot of "variables" along the way...
Some sowed and cultivated, nevertheless, their fruits are never given to them...; for there might have been many stumbling blocks such as a drought, flood, storm, harmful insects, hailstones, and the short knowledge or experience of sowers. By the way, what is more important is the mindset of sowers. That sowers ought contemplate how to surpass all these difficulties... What if sowers cannot reap anything by sowing, then what will they do?...
Every sowers will be frustrated by such hollow results... and give up doing farmingã…¡ no one will want to persist in their will if they don't have an "iron will."
I have been confronted by such difficulties since I began to blog... Now I don't even know what to do for the difficulties... Sometimes, such difficulties provoke me to "anger", and once in a while it makes me "endure", and occasionally it thrusts me into a deep pit of "hopelessness", and from time to time it makes me "thank" about all these situations...
All these things look like a colorful chameleon that changes his skin color frequently, in other words, I'm so capricious like a chameleon...
Lately, my blog seems to be reviewing for AdSense approval whether or not it is eligible. What if my blog is finally approved, then it will be a "miracle"! Because, above all things, people hardly visit my blog, so that my blog looks pretty impossible to be monetized in practice... For this reason, my blog doesn't seem to get accepted for AdSense, although my blog was linked with the queue of reviewing AdSense.
Furthermore, I don't even know when this "infinite review" will be finished.. During the process, what if my blog cannot receive the final approval for a long time, then it will be meant that my blog was automatically rejected...
Because Google doesn't seem to announce "the notification of rejection" especially to the owners of blogspot domain which is directly tied by Google, for this reason, my blog also have to wait even without knowing "the notification of rejection." So, I have to wait... and wait... and wait... endlessly... endlessly...
Instead, Google usually seem to inform the notification of rejection to other owners who have other blog or site domains with the brief reason of why they are rejected. Thus, they typically know the result that they were rejected.
So strangely, people don't visit my blog via Google search site for nearly "10 months", in other words, it will be meant that people never click the indexed pages that I published on Google search site, even though they spot my blog.
In one sense, people might dislike "reading" itself... Because people's brain already became a "popcorn brain" due to the meme of using internet and the development of IT. In another sense, I might not want to draw people to read my writingsã…¡who would welcome to read my writings, which are generally expressed "the suffering of life", "the futility of life", and "the death of life" ?... Who would want to display ads on such a blog to make money...?
In such a setting, even I think that I may not be proper person to blog... Sharing my writings will also be a sin , which might brainwash people with my bitter poison(writings)...
In fact, everybody may be identical with "religious sect leaders" in order to entice away other people through a brainwashing, so that other peoples are to be one's moneymaking, thereby everybody wants to be exalted from other people endlessly like they are God Himself, 💧counting how much they can exercise their power among other people...
Even firemen are victimized/dead in the flaming pit, receiving their "payment"... By the way, what is more cruel is,
Well, I don't even know how I have been keeping up blogging up to now, overcoming such difficulties... I might have been possessed by something invisible power...
It is already mid-August, 2020... Autumn is coming ... Recently this phrase pops into my head, for I'm faced with complaining/grumbling against my current...
In one sense, when I think over how I have been blogging so far, I often think that "all" might have given by the grace of God as above phrase... Because, I might know that my ideas(inspirations) to write something is not caused by meã…¡ not that my talent or my ability, but that it might be given from God... hence, I might have been possible to blog so far...though, I don't even have a knowledge and an experience to blog unlike other bloggers who might have much knowledge and manifold experiences in their lives...
I feel that such ideas flash upon my mind like a lightning in a twinkle of an eye, but not every moment... I don't even know where it comes from, in that respect, I might want to confess that such ideas are not mine... but it might have given from God... And I don't even know how long it will go on...
In addition, this blog platform is free everybody can use, and my writings are publishing/indexing on Google Search Engine after a long wait, even though people don't click it... But, it might be a blessing that my blog might not be monetized by the reason...
Anyway, without this blog, I would not have been able to blog itself, for I'm not good at dealing with other blogs and sites(computer), which look very difficult and complicated to manipulate...
Well, what I have to do is, I might only have to "thank"... Despite I see myself who is always grumbling against all situations in my life.... If I cannot reap what I sowed, what shall I do?ã…¡ in fact, "the seed" and "the soil" are not even mine, as such I might not even be able to complain like I am the "owner"...
So, I'm like a dummy, mignonette, scarecrow, and an actress who can never do as I wish, nor can I own everythings as I wish... But, in fact, every human will be God's dummies, they CAN DO NOTHING as they wish, but must do as God only wishes. No one can WIN God like we humans can never conquer the time and death, though people want to dominate other people and this world by their money and power.
In conclusion, I'm nothing... NOTHING...
So, I might be painful again today... , by the reason that I have to die day by day through blogging, which all my efforts must come to nothing... and "I (self)" have to become " nothing."
That being said, I see myself that I'm still expecting fruition endlessly, though there is "NOTHING" to expect through blogging...
Lately, I purchased pretty two mug cups which look like a pot/jar to "welcome coming autumn", even if I don't have ANYTHING to harvest... These are the porcelanous cups; the price was about $15, these cups were designed by the style of Poland... so it looks exotic in my eyes... And today, I purchased some hub teasã…¡"lime", "lemon verbena." So, it will arrived after 2~4 days. I have never been drunk such hub teas, it is my first time. But I would like to attempt to taste it through this opportunity...
And I purchased this KIRKLAND's "maple syrup" to blend the tea therewith. It will be good rather than a sugar...
When I blogged about "the honeybee", at that time, I bought it. It is my first time to buy a maple syrup instead of honey... For I wanted to try to drink tea on behalf of coffee... From time to time, I used to drink teaã…¡rosemary, peppermint, cinnamon, lotus leaf, jujube, and green tea... but, a rosemary tea seemed not to be fit to me...
Fortunately, I recovered while I was on the bed in ER for 5~6 hours after getting IV(intravenous, drip) with various medical fluids... A nurse injected it, she looked like a veteran who can find out a vessel at one try on my wrist that is why she worked in ER...
Now I never want to drink a rosemary tea, instead, nowadays I drink a green tea and cinnamon tea, which seems to be suitable to me...
The saying always comes into my mind constantly, whenever I blog:
My question is only returning... and returning... to me like the echo that is resounding from a distance...
I have been confronted by such difficulties since I began to blog... Now I don't even know what to do for the difficulties... Sometimes, such difficulties provoke me to "anger", and once in a while it makes me "endure", and occasionally it thrusts me into a deep pit of "hopelessness", and from time to time it makes me "thank" about all these situations...
All these things look like a colorful chameleon that changes his skin color frequently, in other words, I'm so capricious like a chameleon...
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| A Colorful Chameleon |
Lately, my blog seems to be reviewing for AdSense approval whether or not it is eligible. What if my blog is finally approved, then it will be a "miracle"! Because, above all things, people hardly visit my blog, so that my blog looks pretty impossible to be monetized in practice... For this reason, my blog doesn't seem to get accepted for AdSense, although my blog was linked with the queue of reviewing AdSense.
Furthermore, I don't even know when this "infinite review" will be finished.. During the process, what if my blog cannot receive the final approval for a long time, then it will be meant that my blog was automatically rejected...
Because Google doesn't seem to announce "the notification of rejection" especially to the owners of blogspot domain which is directly tied by Google, for this reason, my blog also have to wait even without knowing "the notification of rejection." So, I have to wait... and wait... and wait... endlessly... endlessly...
Instead, Google usually seem to inform the notification of rejection to other owners who have other blog or site domains with the brief reason of why they are rejected. Thus, they typically know the result that they were rejected.
So strangely, people don't visit my blog via Google search site for nearly "10 months", in other words, it will be meant that people never click the indexed pages that I published on Google search site, even though they spot my blog.
What does it really mean...?In addition, people don't even visit my blog on social media sites either! Nowadays, who would want to welcome "text-based blogs" on social media sites? In contrast, people seem to like spontaneous pictures or images or YouTube in place of text-based blogs.
In one sense, people might dislike "reading" itself... Because people's brain already became a "popcorn brain" due to the meme of using internet and the development of IT. In another sense, I might not want to draw people to read my writingsã…¡who would welcome to read my writings, which are generally expressed "the suffering of life", "the futility of life", and "the death of life" ?... Who would want to display ads on such a blog to make money...?
In such a setting, even I think that I may not be proper person to blog... Sharing my writings will also be a sin , which might brainwash people with my bitter poison(writings)...
In fact, everybody may be identical with "religious sect leaders" in order to entice away other people through a brainwashing, so that other peoples are to be one's moneymaking, thereby everybody wants to be exalted from other people endlessly like they are God Himself, 💧counting how much they can exercise their power among other people...
ESV Matthew 12:34 " You brood of vipers! "
I'm also a brood of vipers who must be damned deservedly...This first review happened nearly 9 months later, when I began to blog through this blog platform. How slow the time has been passing since I have blogged for nearly 10 months with an ambiguous expectation for this review approval! Despite its patience is cruelly starting all over again for the final review!
Everybody wants to be happy.
Everybody desires to succeed.Who would like to see the shipwrecked Titanic? But rather, people wish to go on board the Titanic, dreaming each of their dreams... But, the huge Titanic sank into the somber sea forever... , who would foresee it...?
I cannot even do this way and that wayã…¡ stopping blogging makes me painful; it will be possible if I utterly "give up" blogging, which people never visit my blog except for them... , for this reason, my blog will not be approved for the advertising either... And lasting blogging makes me painful as well... That's why...I don't know why I continue to blog...
One of the reasons, it might be the approval for setting up the advert in some ways... How contradictory I am, too! , that is why everybody is sinners...
Having said that, who would want to work something without any reward?... No one will want it.Even so, what if my blog is approved for the final advertising, nevertheless, my blog looks impossible to be monetized in practice...
Even firemen are victimized/dead in the flaming pit, receiving their "payment"... By the way, what is more cruel is,
No one has forced me to blog... No one has guaranteed to pay income for "blogging"...First of all, this reality that no one guarantees to pay earnings through blogging may be to let me even more sorrow and painful... for this reason, I might not even be able to grumble against this vague situation... Plus, no one takes the responsibility if blogs are dead or not, namely even "the death of blogs" turns out "worthless" like a "dungheap"... The forsaken death from...
Well, I don't even know how I have been keeping up blogging up to now, overcoming such difficulties... I might have been possessed by something invisible power...
It is already mid-August, 2020... Autumn is coming ... Recently this phrase pops into my head, for I'm faced with complaining/grumbling against my current...
Psalm 8 : 4 "What is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you are care for him?" ESVThis is the music that I recorded by using the recording application of my mobile phone in the last year perhaps... I played the violin not as an expert; this video was linked through my YouTube channel account, for lately my blog is impossible to upload videos via other route...
In one sense, when I think over how I have been blogging so far, I often think that "all" might have given by the grace of God as above phrase... Because, I might know that my ideas(inspirations) to write something is not caused by meã…¡ not that my talent or my ability, but that it might be given from God... hence, I might have been possible to blog so far...though, I don't even have a knowledge and an experience to blog unlike other bloggers who might have much knowledge and manifold experiences in their lives...
I feel that such ideas flash upon my mind like a lightning in a twinkle of an eye, but not every moment... I don't even know where it comes from, in that respect, I might want to confess that such ideas are not mine... but it might have given from God... And I don't even know how long it will go on...
In addition, this blog platform is free everybody can use, and my writings are publishing/indexing on Google Search Engine after a long wait, even though people don't click it... But, it might be a blessing that my blog might not be monetized by the reason...
Anyway, without this blog, I would not have been able to blog itself, for I'm not good at dealing with other blogs and sites(computer), which look very difficult and complicated to manipulate...
Well, what I have to do is, I might only have to "thank"... Despite I see myself who is always grumbling against all situations in my life.... If I cannot reap what I sowed, what shall I do?ã…¡ in fact, "the seed" and "the soil" are not even mine, as such I might not even be able to complain like I am the "owner"...
This blog is not mine,Visitors are not mine,Life is not mine,Death is not mine,Nation is not mine,Family is not mine,Money is not mine,Health is not mine,Blogging is not even mine...Everything is not mine,But, everything might be God's...
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So, I'm like a dummy, mignonette, scarecrow, and an actress who can never do as I wish, nor can I own everythings as I wish... But, in fact, every human will be God's dummies, they CAN DO NOTHING as they wish, but must do as God only wishes. No one can WIN God like we humans can never conquer the time and death, though people want to dominate other people and this world by their money and power.
In conclusion, I'm nothing... NOTHING...
So, I might be painful again today... , by the reason that I have to die day by day through blogging, which all my efforts must come to nothing... and "I (self)" have to become " nothing."
Blogging might be the same as the "CROSS" and "GRAVE" that I have to "perish" therewith and "die"against my innate sinful-nature as a sinner; wrath, sadness, greed, desperation, grumble, expectation, loneliness...etc.Instead, I might have to learn love, gratitude, satisfaction, forgiveness, await with patience, peace, something like that... But yet, there "might" only exist an infinite frustration(impossibility) and the death in the end..., which might be a cursed and ill-fated human's life itself...
That being said, I see myself that I'm still expecting fruition endlessly, though there is "NOTHING" to expect through blogging...
Lately, I purchased pretty two mug cups which look like a pot/jar to "welcome coming autumn", even if I don't have ANYTHING to harvest... These are the porcelanous cups; the price was about $15, these cups were designed by the style of Poland... so it looks exotic in my eyes... And today, I purchased some hub teasã…¡"lime", "lemon verbena." So, it will arrived after 2~4 days. I have never been drunk such hub teas, it is my first time. But I would like to attempt to taste it through this opportunity...
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| The Cups That I Bought |
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| A Maple Syrup Made in Canada |
And I purchased this KIRKLAND's "maple syrup" to blend the tea therewith. It will be good rather than a sugar...
When I blogged about "the honeybee", at that time, I bought it. It is my first time to buy a maple syrup instead of honey... For I wanted to try to drink tea on behalf of coffee... From time to time, I used to drink teaã…¡rosemary, peppermint, cinnamon, lotus leaf, jujube, and green tea... but, a rosemary tea seemed not to be fit to me...
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Because, this year, perhaps January, I couldn't help but go to the ER(emergency room) in the midnight after I drank such herb teas. I couldn't endure a stomachache and sour-stomach, that is why... Now I suspect that a rosemary tea would cause me to be sick...
That time the doctor said," It look like an acute gastritis, so we need to scope more exactly through an endoscopy."
Fortunately, I recovered while I was on the bed in ER for 5~6 hours after getting IV(intravenous, drip) with various medical fluids... A nurse injected it, she looked like a veteran who can find out a vessel at one try on my wrist that is why she worked in ER...
Now I never want to drink a rosemary tea, instead, nowadays I drink a green tea and cinnamon tea, which seems to be suitable to me...
The saying always comes into my mind constantly, whenever I blog:
"Where do we come from, what are we, where are we going...." ã…¡Paul Gauguin, France.
I ask it again today; where is my blog going...? For what...
But still there, there is only the silence with the ambiguity...
My question is only returning... and returning... to me like the echo that is resounding from a distance...
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