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🌹 Nowadays, many people might have their own car, whether they have a good car or not, in place of a bicycle. Such a car is becoming the necessities of existence for a human's better life.
Both men and women can drive, if they have an eligible qualification to drive. I was also approved to get a drivers' licence for a long time ago.
When I was learning how to drive a car, even I made a decision to die, for I had a "Phobia" to drive, which might have been the same as a "delusion of car accident".
Every time on the road, I couldn't be loosened from the overwhelming/irresistible fear that someone's car might have bumped against my car, especially, the side mirrors, either the right or the leftã…¡ I thought that its mirrors might have been cut off not to see back sight therewith. In doing so, the cut ear of Vincent Van Gogh used to come to mind. The side mirrors were regarded as his ears.
Moreover, when a giant/huge car(like a truck)come nearer to my car, it made me be vastly nervous. In addition, I have never driven on expressways such a long distance, for I was concerned about losing my way on.
In those day, I didn't have a navigation that helped to guide the way I had to go. Once or twice, I drove on the highway to test how to overcome the angst/worry that I had, but yet, after all, I returned to home again along the way...
Now, I don't still drive on the highway, what is more important reason is, I have not driven for a long time, instead of it , theses days, I use public transportation.
I cannot even make sure if I can drive again or not... just my driver's licence is discarded in my wallet like an abandoned rubbish...
I cannot even make sure if I can drive again or not... just my driver's licence is discarded in my wallet like an abandoned rubbish...
A few years ago, I simply renewed/extended the available period for driving not to lose a driver's qualification. Drivers must submit the basic medical check-up paper to attest their still-possibility as a driver, though they don't drive in practice, in which I live.
Beyond that, I was not good at parking like other drivers nicely park. Whenever I park, my car used to miss the boundary line. In that sense, I think that men, not women, seem to drive a car "very well" , When men park, they look like a nimble squirrel, even they rapidly turn a handle with one hand on the rugged/tough road which looks very difficult to park, despite, their cars are placed in a proper place!
In my personal opinion, that men might have a prominent spatial perception. Such men tend to have their own features, such as: they are used to dealing with something machines: computer, car, cellphone, gadgets/tools, electric products...etc. They look very intimate with that stuffs and handle it very well without a special learning for. It looks that they know something principle of machine by intuition.
Such men who might have a numerical ability, reasoning power, and might be down to earth/realistic, logical, analytic, rational, etc. mainly do work at the field of science: natural science(math, physics, chemistry, astronomy...), engineering, IT(Information Technology)
,technology, medical science, research, statics, architecture, economic, business, finance etc... therefore, their brain might be developed to the left side. I envy that men who have a developed brain to the left side.
However, it is also important to develop the right brain that is why people want to enhance "both brain" activity. In general, people say that if one uses both hands, then, it might help to better both brain's activity, thus, in one sense, they learn to play musical instruments like a piano.
I know one of genius writer who was a woman, she was very outstanding to create/write her books, however she drastically got a "zero" on her math exam... I think that my brain was not developed to the left side that is why I'm enviable/envious of those who are remarkable to use the left side of brain.
In the end, I experienced the car accident on the crossroads/intersection, fortunately I was not hurt, other party/he was not hurt either. My car crushed the side of driver's seat a little bit, the other party's car bumped against the side of my car, while I was driving straight. Having said that, I spent a lot of money to restore all that accident...
I learned how to ride a bike with friends in our school playground, when I was 12~13 years old. We fell down to the ground SO MANY TIME, for it was not easy to balance with only two wheels, despite we mastered how to ride a bike again and again, going around the round playground which were encircled by sycamore trees/plane trees around the playground. The fallen leaves were blowing off, and many fallen leaves piled up here and there...it was fall that I like.
Finally, I was able to ride a bike alone without friend's help who helped to balance both sides or back side, at the very moment, I felt a thrill and something freedom from, running, running...running...and running on...
The autumn wind was fresh, and it seemed to split up into, the right side and the left side, sounding his own voice, while I was running on. At that instance, I was like a circus acrobat who walked a tightrope with one-wheel bike in the air. But yet, since that time, I have never ridden a bike again, so that now I might be not able to ride a bike...
People pursue convenient things more and more like a car, well, in the future, probably someone might invent a flying car which might be equipped both functions, one is, it can be driven with wheels on the ground, the other is, it can fly off. Who will know it.. ?😉
Various cars are already released, such as: electric car and tram(kind of electric train), gas-moved car, subway, camping car, ambulance, fire engine, train, even self-driving car which needs no drivers in. Who would like to ride an inconvenient bike than to drive a car in some ways...?
What people want to have a car is, there are other reasons behind including chasing the convenience first. Most people might want to have a posh/ritzy/luxury or the latest-model car than a bike like below;
BMW, Mercedes-Benz, Audi, Toyota, Volkswagen...etc.
That cars are becoming a man's symbol, they tend to identify himself with their own car to indirectly show off their ability, fame, power, wealth...thereby.
Plus, they want to frequently upgrade, transform(car-interior), and then, at last buy a new car without a special breakdown. For humans always want to upgrade "self " through changing a car.
Therein lies a human's hidden desire to follow newie/recency/new thing as always, perhaps it might be the root that we humans want to attest "aliveness" in us, which is not be dead status. Nobody may want to see something "fixed" things, in other words, "the dead status"... Still, nothing new under the sun...
In such a setting, and in some points, I might be blogging to demonstrate my aliveness again today, though my blog died. In the death, I might want to shout my aliveness, how preposterous/unreasonable it is...
Humans might have to "move" or "do" for something on and on, though it is confined by the vanity of life, namely the ultimate death like my blog... It's inevitable, that is an intrinsic/innate human nature to move toward "newie", "aliveness" until we humans really die.
A long time ago, when I dreamed to be pretty like other women did, I also bought the tiny "Burberry" perfume among that items. But yet, it is still left, I rarely spray on perfume... I used to spray its perfume in summer from time to time... This is the perfume;
Even so, the desire for beauty will last as long as I'm alive, just only, now it might have become a potential desire as if the volcano that is boiling hot magma in.
What if I face the desire-stirring for beauty, I will be... Who can make sure that I will not be...? Just, as time goes by, the vanity of life is being deeply imprinted in my heart...
Anyhow, whenever I drove a car, I felt something lonesomeness by which I was stuck in. What if I can ride a bike again, I would like to run, run, run and run...
Well, it might be my greed, in fact, I would love to ride a horse, the "ALIVE" animal! It is neither a bike nor is a car.
What If I have a chance to learn how to ride a horse before I dieã…¡but it is not likely to be done foreverã…¡then,
someday, I will ride a horse in the wide field, communing with the alive horse...
The autumn wind was fresh, and it seemed to split up into, the right side and the left side, sounding his own voice, while I was running on. At that instance, I was like a circus acrobat who walked a tightrope with one-wheel bike in the air. But yet, since that time, I have never ridden a bike again, so that now I might be not able to ride a bike...
People pursue convenient things more and more like a car, well, in the future, probably someone might invent a flying car which might be equipped both functions, one is, it can be driven with wheels on the ground, the other is, it can fly off. Who will know it.. ?😉
Various cars are already released, such as: electric car and tram(kind of electric train), gas-moved car, subway, camping car, ambulance, fire engine, train, even self-driving car which needs no drivers in. Who would like to ride an inconvenient bike than to drive a car in some ways...?
What people want to have a car is, there are other reasons behind including chasing the convenience first. Most people might want to have a posh/ritzy/luxury or the latest-model car than a bike like below;
BMW, Mercedes-Benz, Audi, Toyota, Volkswagen...etc.
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That cars are becoming a man's symbol, they tend to identify himself with their own car to indirectly show off their ability, fame, power, wealth...thereby.
Because, people have a tendency to project "self " into something objects like a car, etc... accordingly, one's car becomes "self ". In such a way, people are obsessed by
"narcissism", buying such a famous brand car like above.
Plus, they want to frequently upgrade, transform(car-interior), and then, at last buy a new car without a special breakdown. For humans always want to upgrade "self " through changing a car.
Therein lies a human's hidden desire to follow newie/recency/new thing as always, perhaps it might be the root that we humans want to attest "aliveness" in us, which is not be dead status. Nobody may want to see something "fixed" things, in other words, "the dead status"... Still, nothing new under the sun...
In such a setting, and in some points, I might be blogging to demonstrate my aliveness again today, though my blog died. In the death, I might want to shout my aliveness, how preposterous/unreasonable it is...
Humans might have to "move" or "do" for something on and on, though it is confined by the vanity of life, namely the ultimate death like my blog... It's inevitable, that is an intrinsic/innate human nature to move toward "newie", "aliveness" until we humans really die.
Contrariwise, what about women? They are the same as men do. Women want to peacock/brag their expensive bagã…¡the luxury brand: e.g. Chanel, Prada, Gucci, Louis Vuitton, Burberry etc., accessories, cosmetics, perfumes, fashion style, hair style, fitness for a beautiful body line, to simply put, for their beauty. All these things might be rooted in the dogged/tenacious "narcissism."
A long time ago, when I dreamed to be pretty like other women did, I also bought the tiny "Burberry" perfume among that items. But yet, it is still left, I rarely spray on perfume... I used to spray its perfume in summer from time to time... This is the perfume;
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Even so, the desire for beauty will last as long as I'm alive, just only, now it might have become a potential desire as if the volcano that is boiling hot magma in.
Anyhow, whenever I drove a car, I felt something lonesomeness by which I was stuck in. What if I can ride a bike again, I would like to run, run, run and run...
Well, it might be my greed, in fact, I would love to ride a horse, the "ALIVE" animal! It is neither a bike nor is a car.
What If I have a chance to learn how to ride a horse before I dieã…¡but it is not likely to be done foreverã…¡then,
someday, I will ride a horse in the wide field, communing with the alive horse...
I wish to scud, scud, and scud
with him
To the end of field.
Far away
Far away
...
And
Far away
Far away
...
And
Into the storm wind...
Without looking back!
Isourblog Shalom
