ISOURBLOG Personal Ideas : 15. The Rough Voyage For Blogging

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🌷 I have been blogged for nearly 5 months so as to post and spread the gospel messages that I translated in person not as an expert translator...

In the meantime, I have experienced how painful it is to blog and how toilsome it is to translate in practice...

Of course, I couldn't get any rewards for blogging and translating...

About that time, my sole consolation was to share the gospel message that I translated with other people who live in the whole world... And seeing some published pages that I translated on Google search engine was a sole comfort... But, the gospel message that I translated looked inappropriate to be published, for this reason, that things were not published as many as I blogged.

Fortunately, now all the published pages (only about the gospel messages) were removed and I also rid all the gospel messages(about 38 pages)... I no longer want to post such a gospel message, which is not based on my perspective... yes, even my personal perspective concerning the gospel message will be incorrect.

That said, I would like to believe that everybody(not as a pastor) might be realized the gospel message if God only lets them know it...

If I had not blogged, then I would never have been experienced what blogging was whether it was helpful or harmful... Perhaps, some might still want to have their own blog. Despite blogging is never easy to maintain as much as people assume... As for me, the most difficult barrier of blogging was the nagging desperation and long wait that is still continuing...

Even it seemed that I was forsaken from Jesus like He was forsaken from His Father on the cross, for I should not have blogged the gospel message, but I did blog it. Ironically, it might also have been God's will behind...

Now my blog looks like an "empty bottle" that has no something "worthy contents", in other words, has no the gospel messages in it, and looks like a "hollow egg" that has no "the yellow" in it...

And my blog looks very impossible to make money like other bloggers have earned money, as much or as little, through blogging. God might have led my blog to be the empty bottle and the hollow egg to which it has to float on the sea aimlessly without having commercial value... Even so, my blog might have to reach somewhere else... again today...

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During that time, I was perceived that my blog could never be approved the advertising. Plus, I didn't know very well about blog-monetization/revenue through advertising before I started blogging so as to post and share the gospel messages. Moreover, I was a complete beginner who didn't know how to manipulate blog platform itself.

I still don't know any kind of blog's/site's function of how to operate, nor do I know how to find out the keywords that will help to be monetized blogs/sites like other bloggers cleverly trace it...

At any rate, my blog has rejected to be reviewed for the approval of advertising since I have blogged for 5 months. Because, I blogged the gospel message that must not be monetized in some way or other.

Now I deeply thank about that my blog was disapproved to be reviewed because of the gospel. That said, there might have been other obstacles or other insufficiency to be disapproved, too.

At that time, I might have been possessed by an unfathomable power, one thing might be this; I wanted to inform something the truth, but it might not have been the absolute truth. Now, I was realized that I was not suitable to let people know the truth(the gospel), indeed, indeed...

Humanly speaking, at first I wanted to display the advertising, blogging the gospel message, for there was no "ANY" reward to blog the gospel message that I translated in person, though I was not an expert translator, whereas pastors have earned money through the gospel preaching/spreadingㅡwhether it is true or false. It hurts me to the bone...

But still, they sermonize,

"Do serve other people for spreading gospel even if you cannot receive any rewards in response to."

However, they make money through preaching/spreading the gospel behind. It was okay even if I blogged the gospel without any rewards, but the most painful of all was, I have felt a sense of betrayal/skepticism against the so-called gospel, whether true or false, that all pastors sermonize based on the Bible, which might be a human's own interpretation, in doing so I was thrown into confusion with much heartache...

Finally, I made a conclusion that no one would know the very truth based on the Bible excluding Jesus Himself.

Thus, I like this lyrics;

"You Know Better Than I"

I thought I did what's right

I thought I had the answers

I thought I chose the surest road

But that road brought me here

So I put up a fight

And told you how to help me

Now just when I have given up

The truth is coming clear

You know better than I

You know the way

I've let go the need to know why

For you know better than I

...omitted

ㅡSong by David Campbell / "Joseph: King of Dreams" OST, the animated Bible storyㅡ

Furthermore, only very few viewers have visited my blog, whenever I have invited them through a social media, anyway, my blog looks like a bleak/desolate desert... yes...the desert...

That being said, a few days ago, I planted some reddish poppies(image) in my blog header(but not now) like "The Little Prince" (author: Antoine de Saint-Exupery, 1943, France) planted his rose on his star ;

" It's the time you spent on your rose that makes your rose so important."

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On the other hand, I might have to thank everything that I have owned my blog, this blog, though it looks like the bleak desert, but, there, the rose might be blooming with the fragrance...

What is more important is, I didn't want to sell Jesus' name to make money through such gospel messagesㅡI'm not a pastor, the job. Ironically, the so-called gospel makes pastors to earn money whether it is true or false, whatever it is, because that is their "business" to make money... Religion might be the same as the drug addict that brainwash and bewitch people to become religious leaders' puppets.

Lately, I thought that if they were the very pastors who have worked only for the sake of Jesus, then they would already have been mad or been tortured or been dead...

For the apostle Paul was treated as a madman, and he was suffered, and then he was dead( if not, he might have been killed) in the end... but, no one will know how he was dead or killed...

ESV 2Corinthians 5:13~14 For if we are beside ourselves, it is for God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. For the love of Christ controls us.....(omitted)

ESV 2Corinthians 11:23 Are they servants of Christ? I am a better oneㅡI am talking like a madmanㅡwith far greater labors, far more imprisonments, with countless beatings, and often near death.

ESV Acts 26: 24 (omitted)...Festus( the ruler of Judea in Israel) said with a loud voice, " Paul, you are out of your mind; your great learning is driving you out of your mind."

The apostle Paul stated like this; "For if we are beside ourselves, it is for God"... 2 Corinthians 5:13

In contrast, all those who have their religions might be the same as a "madman", but they are different from Paul, who was beside himself for God.

Yesterday, I read the news in my country; this is my word that I summarized from the news article:

An insane pastor pressures his followers(churchgoers) to eat their excrement in order to discipline his follower's faith. What is more shocking is, all his followers ate their own excrement in practice without any opposition against the pastor.ㅡThe posted news : May, 5, 2020

Many followers of Christ were martyred for the sake of Christ or for their strong belief, if not, pastors might have to quit the job, the so-called "pastor", instead of it, they might have to WORK for a living, taking off the sniffish priest's dress. Who would want to work a drudgery? Nevertheless, most of people work to earn an honest money unlike pastors, even if its works are hard...

In the future, AI (Artificial Intelligence) might be able to guide the Bible account, if so, pastors will necessarily lose their religious business.

I know one of pastors who suddenly killed himself, it was a GREAT shock to those who have followed him. I recently knew the dead pastor, so that I listened and read his sermon once, but I no longer do it, for I don't want to be biased/one-sided...

God might have allowed him to commit suicide in this way... for God governs all things in the universe behind. Apparently, the pastor looked smart and devout, moreover, he have opposed himself to the fallen Christianity and its pastors... But, he might have felt a disconnection/separation between his mouth that eloquently and assuredly(lionheartedly) proclaimed the gospel, which means that he might have felt a disharmony between the ideal and the reality along the way, so it might have led him to cause schizophrenia in the end... But no one knows the real reason why he... and why God ultimately allows him to be...

Some still vilify/blame him that he would be a fake, saying, " How dare he committed suicide! he must have went into the pit of hell, (as they say) even more the death was a suicide, how it happened to him?"

On the contrary to this, some say that no one knows the pastor's afterlife. In my eyes, even the Bible doesn't seem to precisely mention about that issue either. For a similar reason, what if people commit suicide, then we people will not know about the very result either... Only God will know it... Having said that, it is not meant that we people may kill ourself. What I want to say is that no one knows the very fact except God Himself alone... that is all...

The pastor was also a gospel singer, he have sung the song that he composed directly " Let Us Go Home"... By the same token/similarly, he really killed himself in the bathtub in his house...

According to rumor, he has had a history of mental illness

(panic disorder and a serious depression), however he was an elite than any other pastors.

By the way, the pastor's followers still serve his dead spirit/its sermon through the beam projector that was recorded his sermons in his church(building).

His followers have refused all other pastors to become their spiritual leader(not Jesus?), anyway, plenty of people are condemning such followers. I don't know what it is right or wrong, I don't even want to be involved in that issue, but what I have realized is, and what I agree is, this: "Religion is like drugs" like Karl Heinrich Mark, who was German Philosopher said,

" Religion is the opium of the people".

In that respect, Christianity is being exposed its craziness through the ripple effect/spreading effect of the coronavirus pandemic which are being affected all over the world. Nevertheless, churchgoers have gathered to attend" Sunday worship" amid the disaster of the pandemic.

And while they worship in church(building), ironically many people are being infected due to pastors and churchgoers, so that in some countries, its government, arrested such pastors who enforced to congregate/gather for the worship in church(building). I also read it through the news...

Well, in the cyber world, there are countless dead blogs/sites like my blog, which are floating as if dead stars in the universe...

I have already tasted the very bitterness of blogging, but it was a valuable to realize that I was not the one who had to post the gospel messages through my blog. Plus, I was not even "His people"ㅡGod might have informed it in this way...

Hence, I'm happy that I was aware of the fact that I was not His people.... Other people were not the goat(not God's people), but I was the very goat... I was, I am...

And I have learned the brokenness, so to speak, the Rock is never broken, but an egg must be broken in place of the solid Rock...

I might have to be broken/shipwrecked, and be scattered like the bubble of the wave on the seashore.... When I am shattered like a fragile egg, the Rock will only be highlighted on my behalf...

In some ways, it might look like a servile spirit/servility, that is, the more I am whipped from my master, the more I find pleasure through, shedding tears of blood like slaves who don't say, "Give me more", but say, "Scourge me more"....

My blog might be the same as the servility, slaves, there should not be respected in all sense... Everything is only up to the owner whether I live or die... that is all...

But yet, today I listen this song "The Water Is Wide" so many times with a classic guitar sound... I like the rich chord/harmony of the guitar, not an electric guitar.